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1. |
Morning Mood
02:05
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2. |
Old Room
03:16
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[Verse 1]
I'm here again in my old room
Ghosts of the past, they bring impending doom
Everything's changed
The furniture is rearranged
The walls are teal now
But they once were white
And the bed's moved from the center
To the side
How long will it be
Suburbs are a cage to me
[Chorus]
Two steps forward
And four steps back
I tried so hard to get on the right track
And life's unfair
I know it well
And now I'm here in my own personal hell
How long will it be
Suburbs are a cage to me
How long will it be
Suburbs are a cage to me
[Verse 2]
My parent's keep a nice home
It's cozy and filled with love
And the streets are nice
When lit up by the lights
But it's a ghost town
Feels like no one is around
I said I'd never move back
Thought this was a place that I put in the past
How long will it be
Suburbs are a cage to me
[Chorus]
Two steps forward
And four steps back
I tried so hard to get on the right track
And life's unfair
I know it well
And now I'm here in my own personal hell
How long will it be
Suburbs are a cage to me
How long will it be
Suburbs are a cage to me
[Outro]
I'm drowning in my old room
I'm drowning in my old room
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3. |
Birthday
03:41
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[Verse 1]
I look fucking stupid in this party hat
And I'm tired of greeting guests
I've been dreading this day for a while now
Cause I don't want to grow old
And I haven't really been getting better
Just have new problems replacing the old
And even though so many things have changed
A sense of darkness still remains
[Chorus]
But it's my birthday
I'm in the same place
Getting drunk off my face
Kissing strangers in doorways
Wake with someone in the morning
Yeah it's my birthday
And I can cry
Take some shit to get out of my mind
Cause I don't want to fucking die someday, someday
[Verse 2]
I hate that I'm getting older
And I have this crick in my neck
I wish I lived more fearless when I was younger
Cause time's the only thing you can't get back
And I haven't really been getting better
Just have new problems replacing the old
And even though so many things have changed
A sense of darkness still remains
[Chorus]
But it's my birthday
I'm in the same place
Getting drunk off my face
Kissing strangers in doorways
Wake with someone in the morning
Yeah it's my birthday
And I can cry
Take some shit to get out of my mind
Cause I don't want to fucking die someday, someday
But it's my birthday
I'm in the same place
Getting drunk off my face
Kissing strangers in doorways
Wake with someone in the morning
Yeah it's my birthday
And I can cry
Take some shit to get out of my mind
Cause I don't want to fucking die someday, someday
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4. |
Alone
03:20
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[Verse 1]
I don't have a lot of friends around me
I'm leaving an imprint on my bed
In a new place that feels so old
Ooh-ooh I feel alone
Ah-ooh
[Verse 2]
I'm drinking myself under the table
Have the burn of the whiskey to keep me warm
I don't like to go outside here
Ooh-ooh I feel alone
Ah-ooh
[Verse 3]
It's grey and dark outside
Snow will be falling by midnight
Wish I had someone to keep me company
Ooh-ooh I feel alone
Ooh-ooh I feel alone
Ah-ooh
Ah-ooh
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5. |
Someone New
04:37
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[Verse 1]
I went on a date with someone new
Who looked nothing like you
And he didn't laugh at his own jokes
And he didn't order rum and coke
He said he's a morning person
And likes books and learning
And that his whole life he’s been working
He has an apartment to himself
That he shares with no one else
[Verse 2]
Everything he says is boring
And I'm still hurting
The death of us, I am mourning
He doesn't do it
Like you did
His puzzle piece doesn't fit
You don't love us now, but I do
I'd walk through fire just to get to you
Please don't make me find someone new
[Verse 3]
There's no one else I want to hold
Fuck I love you the most
I really saw us growing old
Maybe you'll take me back
It’ll be like no time has passed
We'll be back on the right track
Cause as I sit here
And watch him sip his beer
I see everything I fear
That we won't be the end (we won't be the end)
That you'll fade past a friend (you won’t be my friend)
After all the time we spent
[Verse 4]
And I'll be somewhere
In the suburbs
Thinking of how love passed me over
So I go
And leave him
And know I'll never see him again
I take a deep breath
In my car
Knowing all this would be hard
I don't want to go out
With someone new
I just want you
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6. |
Carcass
03:30
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[Verse 1]
Strip me out of my clothes, and throw me out
I scraped my knees on the gravel falling down
I'm just some flesh and I will heal
You can crack my ribs, it's no big deal
Fading out and fading fast
Panting, hoping every breath may be my last
I see them circling ‘round the sky
The vultures, waiting for me to die
[Chorus]
Oooh, you can do what you want with me
Oooh, you can destroy me completely
Oooh, throw the stone onto my chest
Oooh, use your mouth to suck out my breath
[Verse 2]
Sharpen the blade, to me cut deep
Rub some salt in the gashes on my body
Peel my skin to show my insides
Expose me to the cold of the outside
Pull on my muscles
Choke me with your belt buckle
I see them circling around the sky
The vultures, waiting for me to die
[Chorus]
Oooh, you can do what you want with me
Oooh, you can destroy me completely
Oooh, throw the stone onto my chest
Oooh, use your mouth to suck out my breath
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7. |
Nathaniel White's House
04:12
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[Verse 1]
Ivy climbing up the walls
This house is falling apart
We see it from the highway
A rite of passage to go inside it
[Chorus]
Bad things happened here
Innocent lives taken of someone dear
There are blood stains on the walls
But standing with you, keeps me safe from it all
[Verse 2]
Nathaniel White went out playing Robocop
Cut somebodies throat and threw them in a trunk
This house stands on those grounds
Feels like cursed land all around
[Chorus]
Bad things happened here
Innocent lives taken of someone dear
There are blood stains on the walls
But standing with you, keeps me safe from it all
[Bridge]
This house is burning down
This house is burning down
This house is burning down
This house is burning down
[Chorus]
Bad things happened here
Innocent lives taken of someone dear
There are blood stains on the walls
But standing with you, keeps me safe from it all
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8. |
Bad Guy
04:13
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[Verse 1]
Your dad’s passed out drunk again
Glass is scattered on the floor
He's naked on the couch
Snores and TV static are the only sound
Your house is a dreadful mess
Dishes in the sink, and flies around the trash
Your dog is barking off his head
Red eyes, and hasn't been fed since when
We walk past, and go up to your room
Pills are scattered on your nightstand
You kiss me, and it tastes like whiskey
But I'm drunk too, so it feels right to me
[Chorus]
You’re a bad guy
Got arrested for a DUI
You’re a bad guy
Rehab dropout
But tonight you're mine
And who could blame you, when you come from this
Parent's regret you, and life's given you shit
[Verse 2]
You ask me to stay the night
But I have to go, I'm expected back home
You pull out some cash
Said you can pay for things that you want real bad
And when you hold on to me
It feels like your trying to climb inside my skin
It's starting to scare me
But I also like the thrill
[Chorus]
You’re a bad guy
Got arrested for a DUI
You’re a bad guy
Rehab dropout
But tonight you're mine
And who could blame you, when you come from this
Parent's regret you, and life's given you shit
[Outro]
You’re a bad guy
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9. |
Stone
02:45
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[Verse 1]
I've hardened my heart over the years
Keeping love out, it's the only thing I fear
Sink or swim, I'm in the shallows
Choke on water as I go down under
[Chorus]
This stone is weighing down my chest
Can't break something hard and compressed
Oh-oh, I wanna open up
Oh-oh, I wanna feel love
[Verse 2]
I'm encased in rusted armor
Protecting me from cupid's archers
There's no tearing these walls down
Inside, I feel safe and sound
[Chorus]
This stone is weighing down my chest
Can't break something hard and compressed
Oh-oh, I wanna open up
Oh-oh, I wanna feel love
Oh-oh, I wanna open up
Oh-oh, I wanna feel love
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10. |
Long Drive
03:58
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[Verse 1]
This wasn't a good night
You came with an artillery to pick a fight
And I don't know why you make things hard
Ready to pounce, and always on the guard
And now we're ready to go
Closed the tab, walk into the snow
[Chorus]
It'll be a long drive home
Tired eyes, and silence, staring at the road
No music plays
In disdain, we sit and stay
[Bridge]
Stop fighting, can we
Go back to the days, when things were easy
And I still love you
You just make it a hard thing to do
I tell you to slow down
Can barely see, it's a white out
You don't care, you still speed
And I'm quietly shaking in my seat
[Chorus]
It'll be a long drive home
Tired eyes, and silence, staring at the road
No music plays
In disdain, we sit and stay
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11. |
Staring At The Open
01:38
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12. |
Drunk Enough
03:45
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[Verse 1]
I like the burn of whiskey
I like the kiss that vodka gives me
I like hug that tequila wraps me in
I like how wine spills cover sin
[Chorus]
I wanna feel like I'm flying
Push the limits, till I'm on the edge of dying
Fall down stairs, I don't care, just want to feel good
Talk too much, spill my guts, take anyone's touch
Say I love you, I don't mean to, just don't want to be alone and blue
So I will lie, liquid courage inside, and tonight your mine
[Verse 2]
A plastic bottle on my floor
Cans and glass clink, when I open the door
It's just my lifestyle
I didn't plan on lasting a while
[Chorus]
I wanna feel like I'm so high
I wanna feel like I'm in the sky
Words don't hurt, tore my shirt, idiotic flirt
A contest, I will win, powers in vice and sin
We'll black out, good man down, wake up and wonder where and how
We're the same, crazy and deranged, and you keep up with me
[Outro]
I wanna get drunk enough
So I can feel your touch
I'll just pour it back, down the hatch, who gives a shit about that
I wanna get drunk enough
Feel your touch
I'll just pour it back, down the hatch, who gives a shit about that
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13. |
Seasons Change
03:22
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[Verse 1]
It's pretty seeing seasons change
Piles and piles of fiery leaves
And the lights will go up soon
I like when the streets are shining blue
The pools are starting to freeze
Had my last cone of ice cream
I'm gonna miss the warmth of the sun,
I'm gonna miss fireworks popping like guns
I'm gonna miss all of the fun
[Verse 2]
Seasons change
But I don't seem too
I'm still the same person, when I met you
Even after all the shit I've been through
And the years haven't been kind
You're still on my fucking mind
You fly, and I declined
November's flying Christmas is soon
I'm alone up in my room
You're miles away sleeping next to who knows who
[Verse 3]
I would go back in time
Standing at the 8th street yellow line
Suburban life killing city dreams of mine
Seasons change and I hope I do
Wanna be happier than with you
Does it get better, wish I knew
[Outro]
Does it get better, wish I knew
Does it get better, wish I knew
Does it get better, wish I knew
Does it get better, wish I knew
Does it get better, wish I knew
Does it get better, wish I knew
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14. |
Power Lines
02:22
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[Verse 1]
I know we aren't talking right now
But I hope we speak again somehow
We've been in fights before
They’ve never lasted this long before
I miss when we'd argue over who loves who more
[Chorus]
And now I'm walking down the street
And in the sky I see
Lines of electricity
[Verse 2]
I know that we still have love in our hearts
Which is what makes this hard
Took my shit out of your drawer
Lifted my suitcase off the floor
Left you the keys to your door
[Chorus]
And now I'm walking down the street
And in the sky I see
Lines of electricity
[Outro]
I know the power lines still connect us somehow
I know the power lines still connect us somehow
I know the power lines still connect us somehow
I know the power lines still connect us somehow
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15. |
Shadows Of You
03:33
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[Chorus]
Even upstate, I see shadows of you
It's like you follow me in everything I do
I can't seem to escape you
And I'm not even sure if I want to
[Verse 1]
I see you when I'm at the grocery store
In the beer aisle, and consider buying your favorite 12 pack of Cors
I see you at the gas station, behind the counter
Malboro Red 100's, and a black Bic lighter
I see you on a diner menu
Medium rare burger, fries, and a milkshake all just for you
I've traveled far
And can still feel you, tugging at my arm
[Chorus]
Even upstate, I see shadows of you
It's like you follow me in everything I do
I can't seem to escape you
And I'm not even sure if I want too
[Bridge]
Come here, come here, come here
Be with me
I want to know you again under navy bed sheets
Come here, come here, come here
Keep me company
It's a cold March night, and I'm feeling lonely
[Chorus]
Even upstate, I see shadows of you
It's like you follow me in everything I do
I can't seem to escape you
And I'm not even sure if I want too
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16. |
Four White Walls
02:42
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[Verse 1]
Four white walls
A grid style ceiling
An unmade bed, an overflowing trash can, all these doubtful plans
[Verse 2]
Four white walls
The dreams I still hold
Stuck inside, life passing by, losing a prime year of my life
[Verse 3]
Four white walls
Spending hours each day
Wanna break out, wanna hit the town, wanna go back to the past and escape the now
[Verse 4]
Four white walls
Haven't been dressing up
Bored all day, in bed I stay, life filtered in a tv static gray
[Verse 5]
Four white walls
I'm losing my mind
Can't see the future, will everything be fine
[Outro]
Will everything be fine
Will everything be fine
Will everything be fine
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