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The Suburban Tapes

by Neil Stevenson

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1.
Morning Mood 02:05
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2.
Old Room 03:16
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[Verse 1] I'm here again in my old room Ghosts of the past, they bring impending doom Everything's changed The furniture is rearranged The walls are teal now But they once were white And the bed's moved from the center To the side How long will it be Suburbs are a cage to me [Chorus] Two steps forward And four steps back I tried so hard to get on the right track And life's unfair I know it well And now I'm here in my own personal hell How long will it be Suburbs are a cage to me How long will it be Suburbs are a cage to me [Verse 2] My parent's keep a nice home It's cozy and filled with love And the streets are nice When lit up by the lights But it's a ghost town Feels like no one is around I said I'd never move back Thought this was a place that I put in the past How long will it be Suburbs are a cage to me [Chorus] Two steps forward And four steps back I tried so hard to get on the right track And life's unfair I know it well And now I'm here in my own personal hell How long will it be Suburbs are a cage to me How long will it be Suburbs are a cage to me [Outro] I'm drowning in my old room I'm drowning in my old room
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Birthday 03:41
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[Verse 1] I look fucking stupid in this party hat And I'm tired of greeting guests I've been dreading this day for a while now Cause I don't want to grow old And I haven't really been getting better Just have new problems replacing the old And even though so many things have changed A sense of darkness still remains [Chorus] But it's my birthday I'm in the same place Getting drunk off my face Kissing strangers in doorways Wake with someone in the morning Yeah it's my birthday And I can cry Take some shit to get out of my mind Cause I don't want to fucking die someday, someday [Verse 2] I hate that I'm getting older And I have this crick in my neck I wish I lived more fearless when I was younger Cause time's the only thing you can't get back And I haven't really been getting better Just have new problems replacing the old And even though so many things have changed A sense of darkness still remains [Chorus] But it's my birthday I'm in the same place Getting drunk off my face Kissing strangers in doorways Wake with someone in the morning Yeah it's my birthday And I can cry Take some shit to get out of my mind Cause I don't want to fucking die someday, someday But it's my birthday I'm in the same place Getting drunk off my face Kissing strangers in doorways Wake with someone in the morning Yeah it's my birthday And I can cry Take some shit to get out of my mind Cause I don't want to fucking die someday, someday
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Alone 03:20
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[Verse 1] I don't have a lot of friends around me I'm leaving an imprint on my bed In a new place that feels so old Ooh-ooh I feel alone Ah-ooh [Verse 2] I'm drinking myself under the table Have the burn of the whiskey to keep me warm I don't like to go outside here Ooh-ooh I feel alone Ah-ooh [Verse 3] It's grey and dark outside Snow will be falling by midnight Wish I had someone to keep me company Ooh-ooh I feel alone Ooh-ooh I feel alone Ah-ooh Ah-ooh
5.
Someone New 04:37
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[Verse 1] I went on a date with someone new Who looked nothing like you And he didn't laugh at his own jokes And he didn't order rum and coke He said he's a morning person And likes books and learning And that his whole life he’s been working He has an apartment to himself That he shares with no one else [Verse 2] Everything he says is boring And I'm still hurting The death of us, I am mourning He doesn't do it Like you did His puzzle piece doesn't fit You don't love us now, but I do I'd walk through fire just to get to you Please don't make me find someone new [Verse 3] There's no one else I want to hold Fuck I love you the most I really saw us growing old Maybe you'll take me back It’ll be like no time has passed We'll be back on the right track Cause as I sit here And watch him sip his beer I see everything I fear That we won't be the end (we won't be the end) That you'll fade past a friend (you won’t be my friend) After all the time we spent [Verse 4] And I'll be somewhere In the suburbs Thinking of how love passed me over So I go And leave him And know I'll never see him again I take a deep breath In my car Knowing all this would be hard I don't want to go out With someone new I just want you
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Carcass 03:30
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[Verse 1] Strip me out of my clothes, and throw me out I scraped my knees on the gravel falling down I'm just some flesh and I will heal You can crack my ribs, it's no big deal Fading out and fading fast Panting, hoping every breath may be my last I see them circling ‘round the sky The vultures, waiting for me to die [Chorus] Oooh, you can do what you want with me Oooh, you can destroy me completely Oooh, throw the stone onto my chest Oooh, use your mouth to suck out my breath [Verse 2] Sharpen the blade, to me cut deep Rub some salt in the gashes on my body Peel my skin to show my insides Expose me to the cold of the outside Pull on my muscles Choke me with your belt buckle I see them circling around the sky The vultures, waiting for me to die [Chorus] Oooh, you can do what you want with me Oooh, you can destroy me completely Oooh, throw the stone onto my chest Oooh, use your mouth to suck out my breath
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Nathaniel White's House 04:12
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[Verse 1] Ivy climbing up the walls This house is falling apart We see it from the highway A rite of passage to go inside it [Chorus] Bad things happened here Innocent lives taken of someone dear There are blood stains on the walls But standing with you, keeps me safe from it all [Verse 2] Nathaniel White went out playing Robocop Cut somebodies throat and threw them in a trunk This house stands on those grounds Feels like cursed land all around [Chorus] Bad things happened here Innocent lives taken of someone dear There are blood stains on the walls But standing with you, keeps me safe from it all [Bridge] This house is burning down This house is burning down This house is burning down This house is burning down [Chorus] Bad things happened here Innocent lives taken of someone dear There are blood stains on the walls But standing with you, keeps me safe from it all
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Bad Guy 04:13
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[Verse 1] Your dad’s passed out drunk again Glass is scattered on the floor He's naked on the couch Snores and TV static are the only sound Your house is a dreadful mess Dishes in the sink, and flies around the trash Your dog is barking off his head Red eyes, and hasn't been fed since when We walk past, and go up to your room Pills are scattered on your nightstand You kiss me, and it tastes like whiskey But I'm drunk too, so it feels right to me [Chorus] You’re a bad guy Got arrested for a DUI You’re a bad guy Rehab dropout But tonight you're mine And who could blame you, when you come from this Parent's regret you, and life's given you shit [Verse 2] You ask me to stay the night But I have to go, I'm expected back home You pull out some cash Said you can pay for things that you want real bad And when you hold on to me It feels like your trying to climb inside my skin It's starting to scare me But I also like the thrill [Chorus] You’re a bad guy Got arrested for a DUI You’re a bad guy Rehab dropout But tonight you're mine And who could blame you, when you come from this Parent's regret you, and life's given you shit [Outro] You’re a bad guy
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Stone 02:45
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[Verse 1] I've hardened my heart over the years Keeping love out, it's the only thing I fear Sink or swim, I'm in the shallows Choke on water as I go down under [Chorus] This stone is weighing down my chest Can't break something hard and compressed Oh-oh, I wanna open up Oh-oh, I wanna feel love [Verse 2] I'm encased in rusted armor Protecting me from cupid's archers There's no tearing these walls down Inside, I feel safe and sound [Chorus] This stone is weighing down my chest Can't break something hard and compressed Oh-oh, I wanna open up Oh-oh, I wanna feel love Oh-oh, I wanna open up Oh-oh, I wanna feel love
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Long Drive 03:58
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[Verse 1] This wasn't a good night You came with an artillery to pick a fight And I don't know why you make things hard Ready to pounce, and always on the guard And now we're ready to go Closed the tab, walk into the snow [Chorus] It'll be a long drive home Tired eyes, and silence, staring at the road No music plays In disdain, we sit and stay [Bridge] Stop fighting, can we Go back to the days, when things were easy And I still love you You just make it a hard thing to do I tell you to slow down Can barely see, it's a white out You don't care, you still speed And I'm quietly shaking in my seat [Chorus] It'll be a long drive home Tired eyes, and silence, staring at the road No music plays In disdain, we sit and stay
11.
Staring At The Open 01:38
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12.
Drunk Enough 03:45
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[Verse 1] I like the burn of whiskey I like the kiss that vodka gives me I like hug that tequila wraps me in I like how wine spills cover sin [Chorus] I wanna feel like I'm flying Push the limits, till I'm on the edge of dying Fall down stairs, I don't care, just want to feel good Talk too much, spill my guts, take anyone's touch Say I love you, I don't mean to, just don't want to be alone and blue So I will lie, liquid courage inside, and tonight your mine [Verse 2] A plastic bottle on my floor Cans and glass clink, when I open the door It's just my lifestyle I didn't plan on lasting a while [Chorus] I wanna feel like I'm so high I wanna feel like I'm in the sky Words don't hurt, tore my shirt, idiotic flirt A contest, I will win, powers in vice and sin We'll black out, good man down, wake up and wonder where and how We're the same, crazy and deranged, and you keep up with me [Outro] I wanna get drunk enough So I can feel your touch I'll just pour it back, down the hatch, who gives a shit about that I wanna get drunk enough Feel your touch I'll just pour it back, down the hatch, who gives a shit about that
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Seasons Change 03:22
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[Verse 1] It's pretty seeing seasons change Piles and piles of fiery leaves And the lights will go up soon I like when the streets are shining blue The pools are starting to freeze Had my last cone of ice cream I'm gonna miss the warmth of the sun, I'm gonna miss fireworks popping like guns I'm gonna miss all of the fun [Verse 2] Seasons change But I don't seem too I'm still the same person, when I met you Even after all the shit I've been through And the years haven't been kind You're still on my fucking mind You fly, and I declined November's flying Christmas is soon I'm alone up in my room You're miles away sleeping next to who knows who [Verse 3] I would go back in time Standing at the 8th street yellow line Suburban life killing city dreams of mine Seasons change and I hope I do Wanna be happier than with you Does it get better, wish I knew [Outro] Does it get better, wish I knew Does it get better, wish I knew Does it get better, wish I knew Does it get better, wish I knew Does it get better, wish I knew Does it get better, wish I knew
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Power Lines 02:22
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[Verse 1] I know we aren't talking right now But I hope we speak again somehow We've been in fights before They’ve never lasted this long before I miss when we'd argue over who loves who more [Chorus] And now I'm walking down the street And in the sky I see Lines of electricity [Verse 2] I know that we still have love in our hearts Which is what makes this hard Took my shit out of your drawer Lifted my suitcase off the floor Left you the keys to your door [Chorus] And now I'm walking down the street And in the sky I see Lines of electricity [Outro] I know the power lines still connect us somehow I know the power lines still connect us somehow I know the power lines still connect us somehow I know the power lines still connect us somehow
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Shadows Of You 03:33
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[Chorus] Even upstate, I see shadows of you It's like you follow me in everything I do I can't seem to escape you And I'm not even sure if I want to [Verse 1] I see you when I'm at the grocery store In the beer aisle, and consider buying your favorite 12 pack of Cors I see you at the gas station, behind the counter Malboro Red 100's, and a black Bic lighter I see you on a diner menu Medium rare burger, fries, and a milkshake all just for you I've traveled far And can still feel you, tugging at my arm [Chorus] Even upstate, I see shadows of you It's like you follow me in everything I do I can't seem to escape you And I'm not even sure if I want too [Bridge] Come here, come here, come here Be with me I want to know you again under navy bed sheets Come here, come here, come here Keep me company It's a cold March night, and I'm feeling lonely [Chorus] Even upstate, I see shadows of you It's like you follow me in everything I do I can't seem to escape you And I'm not even sure if I want too
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Four White Walls 02:42
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[Verse 1] Four white walls A grid style ceiling An unmade bed, an overflowing trash can, all these doubtful plans [Verse 2] Four white walls The dreams I still hold Stuck inside, life passing by, losing a prime year of my life [Verse 3] Four white walls Spending hours each day Wanna break out, wanna hit the town, wanna go back to the past and escape the now [Verse 4] Four white walls Haven't been dressing up Bored all day, in bed I stay, life filtered in a tv static gray [Verse 5] Four white walls I'm losing my mind Can't see the future, will everything be fine [Outro] Will everything be fine Will everything be fine Will everything be fine

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released April 28, 2023

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